so there are a few (like 2) of you out there who have come up to me recently and said, “why did you stop blogging?” after my ego comes down from realizing that there are a couple people that actually visit this site I find myself diving into my either one of two reasons. The first one being that I don’t think i believe in blogging anymore. yes, i know, it is a strange thing not to believe in. but everybody i know who has a blog has had at least one blogging crisis where they wonder why they continue to blog. this must be mine. on my good days i think blogging is a good way to get thought out and to communicate with friends and family that are a far. On my bad days i think of blogging as a self-indulgent, narcissistic forum. This blog does both of those.

the second explanation is that my audience has changed. and anyone who has ever written anything for public consumption knows that when it is written there is always a face, or two, or many that are at the forefront of the mind. this facilitates what language is used, how ideas are expressed, and much more. and since i have graduated from MHGS that crowd is not my audience anymore. for the most part my audience seems to be people in europe, south america, and the occasional person from alaska. strange? yeah, i think so too.

so here i am, with some spare time on a monday afternoon typing words onto a screen that will soon be read by who knows who and less than 2% of people respond, the other 98% simply consume the information without adding, or subtracting from what i say. so why do i do this, it seems to be futile at times.

maybe that is why i stopped?

in addition to the above two reasons, i have stopped blogging because there is way too much to update you all (the two of you) on. so much has changed in the past 3-4 months. i finally got done with MH and am in the process of understanding what it means to not be a student for the first time in my life, i got a grant through the Christian Reformed Church (CRC) to do community development and reconciliation in Urban Seattle, I quit my job as Associate pastor at Wits End Church, I am in conversation about opening a small business in Urban Seattle, Brooke and I may (in less than 5 week) own two condo’s, and i backpacked/hiked over 80 miles in 4 weeks.

so, all that to say, as Kai (the name of my non-profit) takes off this blog will be changing, and look for an announcement (soon) about the Kai website going public.